When I think of the creative imperative, that insistant urge that drives all types of endeavors, I visualize the smal bird described below in the poem Fickle Bird
Fickle Bird
by Daniel Noll
This fickle bird I've seen before
It has it's precedent
It can turn life inside out
Reveal the workings of all things
Open one eye and blind the sun
With the other make the insane wise
Or follow the path of a molecule of ink
Through a glass of water.
With it's delicate beak tear through the earths crust
and in the next moment pick out that particular grain of sand
From the wind blown Sahara.
With one tiny clawed foot pick a whole galaxy
Out of it's place in the universe.
It's chirpping can drown out a choir of angels in full voice
Sentence men to perdition
Order nations about
All this..yet it is so very shy
It flutters on its perch
The air turns to froth
Boulders fall from the sky
It flutters again and
The veins of the sun pop out
Fire flows to the earth from the tips of it's wings
It can dissolve common sense in a good man
Create whole religions from a childs storybook
Indict and absolve
Fury and beauty
All from the fluttering of it's tiny wings
Dispite it's small size
It is a voracious consumer of humanity
Men or women and their families
and all their households, fortunes and futures
It is a sad tyrant, well beloved monarch
God and Devil, Angel and Demon
Feed it at great risk for
It can regurgitate whole nations out it's tiny gut
Let it sit on your finger
Maybe it will only occupy a shoebox size space
High up in the bedroom closet,
Having sung it's song elsewhere.
Or it may make your whole house it's residence
And order you about
It may just sit and shit on your best china
And expect you to clean it up - over and over.
It may do that for years till the house and yard
Are piled high with the refuse of this tiny bird
And the neighbors move away.
The authorities may come and you explain
About this little bird and it's capacity to consume and shit.
You show it to them
It sits grey and silent
They ask you why, why keep this tiny bird of devastation?
And you explain that someday it may sing a little song.
They leave you alone after that.
Right after they leave you hear it.
Tinkling notes that become ponderous
with the sound of stomping men marching down the street
Delicate fluttering sounds like dancers feet
Great brushstrokes of sound
The ringing sound of steel on wood and stone
High-hatted men orating
Delicate fingers filling the air with fury and chaos
Hard crude fingers with rose petal sounds
At last it settles down and I dare to open the door
To where the little bird dwelt
But the little bird had fled
I cleaned up the mess it made
I sat, exhausted, glad it had gone
I tried to remember the tunes it sang and wished it back